"What to do when you've had such a bad day? Easy. Make a poem. What about after? That's up to you."

Nobody likes having bad days. You can't help but remember your stupidity in the situation. But I go through this a lot. And again, it takes an effort to get over it. It might dampen my spirits for a while, but hey, this isn't forever! ^___^ gotta stay positive(though its difficult).

When skies turn gray,

And pillows are punched,

I've nothing more to say,

I'm just simply crunched.

Have a little fit or two,

But still not okay,

I'd ball my fists too,

My feelings in quiet disarray.

Time for a break,

Take a slow, deep breath,

Control isn't a piece of cake,

Mind over matter, bury it all in depth.

I'd try finding my strength,

To stand up and do things right,

Dust off discouragement, walk farther at a length,

Leaving it all behind, so far out of sight.

I'd grasp a helping hand,

Two to divide the pain.

Life is simply grand,

With friends to throw troubles down the drain.

Frustrations come but it will pass,

It's all in the matter of handling it,

Take it in, learn the lessons it has,

Just get out of that sandy pit.

“In Dreams I Meet You There”

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-=I dedicate this to someone who has known so much of me, and is very close to my heart. She is my best friend, my bestie bud, whose friendship I've shared for 6 years. I miss you, Joanna. This one's for you.=-

In dreams I see you,

Your form so real and true,

Reality evades me in this world of dreams,

Where nothing is as real as it seems.

My soul feels light and blissfully happy,

As I walk beside you, absolutely carefree.

I chatter away, enjoying your company,

Time seemed endless, it was just you and me.

In dreams your presence is assuring and comforting,

It comes with your reminder, a message to stop despairing,

I must go on and live as I should,

You smile at me and I know somehow, I could.

Now I look back and remember those rare times.

I remember your laughter, your presence, your poetic rhymes.

We're endlessly distant, a whole life apart,

But you're here I know, in the depths of my heart.

In silence, in despair, my thoughts turn to you,

I'd lie down and I'd wonder, so unknowing of what to do.

Please watch over and guide me true,

From darkness keep, to the light I go through.

I miss you, dear friend, wherever you are,

I wish you eternal happiness, as bright as a laughing star,

Our friendship has always been amazing and one-of-a kind,

And always it will be cherished, both in heart and mind.

A Major Essential in a Relationship: TRUST

"No, I am not an expert in relationships. I've never even entered a serious relationship before. I'll reserve that for my future. But nevertheless, I've seen enough that if trust isn't established properly in a relationship, it could take a turn headed for disaster."

Trust is a must in any form of relationships, whether in family, friendship and love. There is trust in a family when there is understanding and responsibility. We trust our best friends because our secrets with them are kept safe. But trust becomes delicate when incorporated into a boy-girl relationship. It's definitely different.

Trust, in its basic form, means confidence, moral responsibility and faith. Two keywords here are moral responsibility and faith(confidence is closely related to this). Having faith is strongly believing, and that is important for a relationship to work. Trust becomes a moral responsibility when it is given to someone. It's wonderful when you can become a person to be trusted. It means that you value what they give you and that they in turn, know that they could count on you. Trust is delicate, and sometimes heavy. Therefore, it should never be taken for granted. It's one of the hardest things to get back once you have lost them. It takes so much more to earn it back than to lose it in the blink of an eye. At extreme cases, it may prove impossible to do so. We have to be careful.

It's sad a lot of relationships fall apart because of gossips(what I'm trying to say by this is that when one side listens to gossips more rather than hearing the truth from its source, your partner), third parties and jealousy. And no doubt you'd sometimes ask yourself: was there real trust between both sides?

Gossips can be very damaging. Either you believe them or you don't. At some point in a relationship, gossips arise that may test the faith of one side. Instead of immediately jumping to conclusions, its best to get to the bottom of the matter. And there is no one better to answer that than its very source and subject, your partner. Having a heart-to-heart talk in times like these proves the existence of trust in relationship. You trust your partner to tell you the truth of the gossips. If it turns out that the gossips are untrue, then your partner will be relieved to know that you trusted in him/her enough to ask the truth from her instead of immediately believing gossips and create a misunderstanding. It seems impractical too to listen to gossips rather than hearing the truth from your partner whom you have known so well for a long time. If the gossips are true, well, that is another situation. This is where understanding should come in. Both sides should talk it out and listen to what each other has to say before judging. They should try to understand what went wrong and then come up with the best possible solution. A fight may be unavoidable, and that is natural. In the end, we have to make decisions as to whether we continue the relationship or end it. If another chance is given, accept it wholeheartedly and strive to do better in the future. If not, then it simply had to end.

What I'm really trying to point out here is that in situations like these, they should really talk, I mean, really talk. Communication is the key. Constant communication is even better. I doubt relationships stand a chance without this.

When there is communication, its letting the other side know what you do and how you feel, effectively bringing the relationship closer. A relationship at the beginning takes a lot of adjustments. And most of it involves getting to know the person better and getting used to him/her. We must know what both sides want, and work out solutions to settle that together. Talking often is igniting that special spark all over again, and trust becomes stronger each time we do. We can also overcome little quibbles if both sides are open to each other. If anything's wrong, then speak it out instead of putting unnecessary strain on yourself and the relationship. It's best that you do. Sometimes silence, thought it may not seemingly hurt anyone, can create problems. Since the other side doesn't have a clue of what's going on, there appears a gap between the relationship. If the other side suddenly becomes silent and is starting to withdraw from you, wouldn't you want to know what's happening? If silence continues, then you will simply drift apart. I've seen this happen. And most often, it is the girls who is left so confused and hurt. It's like the heart wants to ask that silent person, "Did you not trust me enough to tell me what's wrong?". It seems so wrong for a relationship to end like that. There is no other way to deal with it then to talk openly. And make sure that after the communication, there will be little room for ill feelings. Accept whatever comes. The truth may hurt for quite a while, but its not impossible to get over it with the right help.

That's why its important to communicate often. It's an essential key for trust to keep the relationship intact. It hardly leaves any holes for misunderstanding.

As perfection decrees, no one is perfect. Committing mistakes is unavoidable, and it takes patience and acceptance from both sides. This is also where you will see if your partner is able to accept you for who you are and what you are not. If he/she truly loves you, he/she knows how to overlook your mistakes and see the beautiful side of you. That is looking with your heart and not your eyes alone. If there was ever trust in the beginning, then this will eventually hold true.

Trust in relationships should have a strong ground. Keeping these things in mind might help strengthen whatever relationships there may be, despite obstacles that come to test its connection. It's important to keep the relationship alive, more so to keep that special spark going. You got together for a reason and there is love to keep both of you there, and there should definitely be trust to keep it strong.

It all starts here, when you say it and when you accept it from someone;

"I trust you."

~I'm not speaking from experience here. This is merely my opinion based on what I observe around me. I learn from these situations and I develop an idea of what should and should not be done. It's helpful to observe of what's going around you. It might even guide you.~

Top 10 Realizations of 2009

It's the new year! I take a step back for a moment and ponder on the things that I realized and come to accept in the year 2009. So much has happened, but here's my Top 10 list:

10.) I choose how my life goes, I allow things to happen but some may be out of control. But to the extent of those I can influence, I choose to live my life with responsibility, good sense and moral and with meaning.

9.) I've written more poems this year than any other year.

8.) A lot of things that I wistfully wished for came true. I didn't really ask for them, but it's a wish uttered at passing times. Nevertheless, they came true.

7.) I used to worry about being on the skinny side. But not so much now, since a close friend pointed out to me, "You can eat as much as you want. " :D

6.) Find time to vent your feelings. The feeling doesn't leave you till you do.

5.) I'm convinced that choosing ComSci as my course is one of the best choices I made. I realize that I prefer it so much over other possible course choices. Hopefully I'll see this through the end.

4.) If you're not sure that you love that person, then you probably didn't love him at all.

3.) I could write more than a thousand reasons why I'm very much thankful to the Good Lord of all that I have today. They're priceless.

2.) There's just no escaping some things, no matter how hard you've tried preparing yourself to avoid them.

1.) 2009 is a year I'll never, ever, ever forget. I felt that the year 2009 has given me a mountain of amazing surprises that came tumbling down on me. It's been a truly beautiful year for me.

-the treasures of the past should be kept safe and cherished, they will become priceless for the future. -

The Fruits of my Thoughts

Sentimental? I guess so. Confused? Likely. Down? Maybe. I like to do a lot of thinking and perhaps a bit of brooding. But anyway, these are some things I happened to write in times like these. They're written during different days and in different moods. Some of these are quotes I happened to like or are in line with how I feel that day. Here are bits of thoughts that spring from my ever-bizarre mind.

"If a book was all it took to remember you, I'd carry one everyday." - me.

(It was taken from another quote, originally having flowers as its subject, but I like books and I guess that would be more effective for me to remember people. ^__^)

"I'd like to be alone,

But sometimes I don't

I rarely have mood swings

But now's an exception

As I curl around my bed

My thoughts confused and unread

I wondered if someone cared

Enough to take me out of the dark."

-me-

(Surely you can tell that my mind was quite boggled when I wrote this. I don't remember much, as this was written about two years back, but I knew that I was upset over something during this time.)

"To think about the end will feel like a hundred years has passed but to not think about it at all is like reaching that point in the blink of an eye."

(I got this quote from my best friend, Nikki. This quote comes to my mind whenever I think that I dwell too much on the end rather than journey it takes to get there. We sometimes wish for time to go fast, but sometimes it is what makes the wait even longer.)

"Believe in your dreams, not in your depressing thoughts. Feed your faith. Starve your doubts. Always remember tough times never last. But tough people do."

(This is one of the many quotes that I receive in my cellphone. But I do find it inspiring. Depression can bring us down, but the solution or some form of comfort may not be too far away. Better if you know exactly where to look. ^_^ Faith is powerful, if you find it in your heart to truly believe that things will work its way right eventually. And it's a relief to oneself to know that your trust isn't wasted when it works.~ Finally, strength. It is what is usually tested in us during difficult times. It measures how long we last, and how easily we break during pressure. I believe that strength is in all of us, if we just have the courage to use it wisely. In this world full of challenges that come our way, we have to have the strength to face it all and last. It will always be a great relief to have passed a raging storm.)

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These are four of my thoughts. I might post more later on. If I get more sentimental, that is.~

The Simplest Thing to Remember during Christmas: Jesus

Before I begin to elaborate on the point of my article, I'd like to share this text message that I've received recently:

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Jesus and Santa Claus talking...

Jesus: alam mo, naiinggit ako sa iyo..

Santa: bakit naman?

Jesus: kasi ikaw ang inaabangan nila sa birthday ko.

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Sad reality, is it not? Somehow when we try to evaluate ourselves, this sometimes becomes the case. We come to expect the wrong person when Christmas comes, and we might forget that Christmas isn't all about getting the most gifts. That's why we must always keep in mind the core reason why we do celebrate Christmas. The point is not in feasts, not in Santa Claus giving us gifts through our chimneys nor in artfully decorating our homes for the season, they are merely part of the celebration, or I'd prefer to call it the 'decorations' for the occasion.

Looking at our present time, there are so many distractions that tend to sidetrack us from our intended purpose. Such is the modern world in which we live in. Things are becoming less simpler than they were before. There are so many things that require a lot of procedures before they are accomplished. And we are often caught in the complexity of it all. Christmas trees, decorations, Santa Claus, caroling, exchange-gifts and others are part of our yearly Christmas tradition. And because Christmas is understood to be a joyous and festive event, we go around putting up and preparing all these things. Indeed, they brighten up the occasion and add so much life to it. Then again, that's not the point entirely. Remember to focus on the source of the light, not its glow.

We celebrate Christmas for a very very important reason, and that is the Birth of our Saviour, Jesus Christ. He is the One who died for our sins, the One whom we call on when we are troubled, and it is He who must be kept alive in our hearts, most especially during the Christmas season. His birth signifies the salvation of mankind, our cleansing from earthly sins. He is Jesus Christ, the Light of the World.

And that's the bottom line. It all comes down in remembering the birth of a little child who was to become our Saviour, born in simplicity, laid in a manger. It was this moment when the angels sang choirs in the skies, and Three Wise Men came to find Jesus to give him gifts and acknowledge him as King and as the Son of God. Jesus is the core reason why we all celebrate Christmas. The one whom the banquet must be prepared for.

I do enjoy all the festivities of Christmas; the bright and colorful lights, the Christmas trees, the decorations, the carolers, the Noche Buena, Nine Mornings, Santa Claus and the reindeers too. I guess everyone does. A pat on the back, cheering up a sad friend, greetings of 'Merry Christmas', simple exchange of gifts, completing the Nine Mornings and family time surely gives the Christmas season its 'magic'. In the midst of it all, we should remember that we do these things because we share the love that God gave us, we share our happiness with others, and most of all because we celebrate the birth of that little child who is Jesus, our Saviour.

It doesn't matter what amount money we spend during this season, because as everyone knows, true happiness is intangible but heartfelt. The simple joys we give each other out of love, with money spent or not, is our way of preparing ourselves for His coming. It is what should be remembered and treasured in our hearts, and that's when the happiness and magic of Christmas is truly seen and felt.

Song of the Day

My Song of the Day:

You and Me by Lifehouse.

It's been a very tiring day. And the past days as well. I really just wanted to go home and rest, grab a pillow or two, and not wake up till the next morning.

So when I finally got home, I went to my room and flopped down on the bed, wondering what I should do first. I wanted to sleep, but I still had work to do. Schoolwork, of course. But before I bother myself with a bunch of academic-related stuff, I decided to listen to music. Scrolling down on my playlist, I chose 'You and Me' by Lifehouse, just because i felt like it. ^___^

I think the headphones had something to do it(I love the quality of it, how the music comes out from it), but I felt that the song felt so much more alive. Every tone, rhythm, the vocals, well, everything. I already love the song and played it a lot of times, but somehow I felt as if I heard it for the first time and liked it immediately.

So there I was, just listening, and I felt great and relieved somehow. It took me out of my tiredness as of the moment. Now, I feel like I'm ready for the work ahead of me tonight.

Music does work miracles. =)