Don't be sad anymore. Neh?

Hi there, Josh. :)

Oh yes I was irked by what you said. And it is because I can't stand being treated that way. Not after all that I've said that could help you.

"I hardly give reasons for people to slight me, so don't give me a reason to.", so as a motto says, hahaha. But anyways, stop being sad. It's gonna be alright.

I hope you like this poem, though. :D

"No matter the rainy morning today,

It can't cloud the heart that's happy, that I say,

Come the chill and come the splatter,

That's just how it is with the changing weather,

But it is we who decide how everything goes,

It'll be sunny again, so begone the woes."

You need to see a lot of people care.

Proof: It's in your profile(and I'm sure you've seen it when you're reading this). ^_^

An Optimistic Look Forward

Tomorrow is the beginning of classes. I'm psyched.

Are You?

I could honestly say I wasn't in my best last semester, but I'm proud to say I've survived. :)

Now the second semester is beginning, and my bag and myself is ready to dive in for new lessons and piles of homework. Obviously others aren't too thrilled to go back to school. Some didn't even feel the 'break' part of the sembreak. How sad.

But classes is classes, and there's no other way around it. Refresh your mind and keep a happy face. Meet new teachers and meet new classmates. Another semester is a chance to make up for what we've lacked or lost in the past sem. No matter the hard lessons. Diligence is the prime key to getting good grades.

Remember:

-Don't pile up your works. Do homeworks ASAP. (I try to. xp)

-Study in advance

-Have a study schedule

-Discipline

These are a few rules I apply. You should too.

Good Luck.

Beginning Anew

I haven't written for a long time.

But I am really going to start writing, with my inspiration and all. I've revamped my blog and my pen, er, keyboard is ready to get some blogging input.

Planning to start a good topic.

Hello, Blogging(and Bloggers alike). *wink*

The Unusual Tale of How I Tamed my Cat

I have a new pet. I didn't buy him nor did I obtain him from a specific source. He's just there, wild and untamed, until I managed to get him used to me.

I don't even have a name for him. I guess I still need to find a name that would fit him right. But for now, he's my little tiger, my new pet cat.

I don't know whether it was difficult or easy to tame the cat. Well, kitten really, if we start at the beginning. But I did have a fun time doing it.

You see, when he was just newly born, about the time he started walking around, I chased after him. Yes, that I did. Since he was still little, I could easily catch him, unlike the older cats who could easily run away from me.

The cats we have here at home are what we call 'laaw' types of cats, meaning they are usually stray cats who run away from a nearing person. One of the female cats gave birth to two kittens, but the other one died. The one who lived became the object of my goal.

I do love animals. I love dogs, rabbits and cats. I'd like to have a pet, but my mom and dad didn't think it wise for me to have one right now. I thought that if I couldn't have a normal pet, why not turn one of our home cats into one?

So, going on, I'd chase after the kitten and pick him up. I don't try torturing the poor little kitten, if that's what you're thinking, as I know some people would for the fun of it. Instead I'd pet the little critter, scratching his ears and ruffle his hair. Of course, as a stray cat, his normal reaction would be to try to get away from me. But I held him in place, not too strong, but firm and gentle. I wouldn't let go of him until I thought he was pampered enough.

I did that just about as often as I could. Hey, I'm no pushover here, I'm not even trying to harm the little one. All I want was to try to tame him.

So, I kept on petting him, ruffling his hair and scratching his ears. Oddly enough, he soon ceased resisting me. He doesn't really respond, he just usually stays very still. I felt a flicker of hope and excitement. There was a huge positive thought in my mind that I could make him my pet.

Weeks after that odd change, he started responding. He seemed to like me petting him. He would give a little purr and tilt his head sideways whenever I started scratching his neck. And that, by the way(scratching the neck), is effective way of petting the cat. I've discovered that most of the cats like it when you do that.

That response, for me, was a very big progress. Who knew that after having those cats in our home for more than 25 years, I'd actually tame one of them? I really had fun with what I was doing and I was starting to have a very pet of my own.

Soon enough, what I really hoped for happened. The time arrived that it had gotten used to me. Whenever I was out in the yard, and the kitten saw me, it would rush to me and rub against my feet! It would meow and look up to me with those honey gold eyes of his. Though I don't know if that gesture would be counted as affectionate, for a cat, but I still considered it to be. I couldn't believe it, but I tamed a cat! I was definitely happy.

Now, whenever I'm out, I'd call out a 'meow' and it would come rushing to me. And then I'd pat his head, pick him up and give him a treat. How I loved my new pet. His fuzzy hair would tickled my toes and he would be content just going around my feet. I really like petting him, since cat hair is pretty much soft, and, well, hairy. I'd play with him sometimes, and he just follows me around.

One proof that I really have tamed him is that he never goes near another person except me. He wouldn't run if it was me, but if there was another person nearing him, he'd scoot off.

I was really proud of myself of what I was able to do. I have a new pet and I'd take care of it. I especially love feeding him biscuits and he'd usually want to bite the biscuit entirely off my hand. Whatever I was doing outside, washing clothes or sweeping the yard, he'd just be there, near to me, sitting on the grass and watching or circling my feet. I love my new pet.

I've yet to name him, as I said at the beginning. I'm going to find a fitting one soon, for my little tigress. Future projects would be to teach him some tricks, which I know will be difficult to do. Advice anyone? :D

A Gift Rare and True

For pre-Valentines Day, I'd like to share this for those who may be waiting for their special someones. :D

You came to my life in my darkest day.
No longer had I strength to carry on.
The mask I showed the world had slipped
And I had lost my will to be strong.
Searching my soul brought me nothing.
I wanted no more from the world
Than to be alone, an uninvolved stranger.
But, by not seeking, I found you.

A ray of sunshine entered my life.
A glimmer of dawn and days to come.
I discovered meaning, true meaning,
As I had never before found in myself.
I found hope, joy, love and laughter.
But also tears, self-doubt and longing.
I yearned to let my thoughts be revealed,
Yet I feared the loss of your light.

My joy in you flew high, but yet,
Revealing that joy brought sadness.
Would I lose that which I love by loving
or lose it by not loving enough?
Questions, never answers, filled my heart.
I doubt not my love, only the showing of it.
Yet it is a risk I gladly take
For I would rather lose by loving than by not.

To love and not give it freely
Is a crime I refuse to commit.
To love and not speak of it
Is a waste of beautiful words.
To love and not show it openly
Is to deny a precious gift.
Love is never given easily
So should not be lightly dismissed.

Love is a special emotion.
Found rarely and not often returned.
Blessed are those who love without question,
Without demanding love in return.
Loving while still unloved
Is the proof of profound depth.
This is the ultimate sacrifice,
To give of yourself with no demands.

To you, dear heart, I give my love.
Freely, for it is not meant to bind you.
Fully, for it is deeply felt.
Faithfully, to be your anchor
Through all storms.
Eternally, for it will never die.
I give to you of myself willingly.
Accept as you wish, light or serious.
I have spoken, the choice is yours.

Take time to consider fully
The meaning of these few lines.
They are only a part of all I have to give.
Yet I understand your reluctance.
Time is one thing I give you gladly,
For I took time I needed too.
Come to me when you are ready.
My heart will always be waiting.
This is my gift to you.

-Angi Eads-

"What to do when you've had such a bad day? Easy. Make a poem. What about after? That's up to you."

Nobody likes having bad days. You can't help but remember your stupidity in the situation. But I go through this a lot. And again, it takes an effort to get over it. It might dampen my spirits for a while, but hey, this isn't forever! ^___^ gotta stay positive(though its difficult).

When skies turn gray,

And pillows are punched,

I've nothing more to say,

I'm just simply crunched.

Have a little fit or two,

But still not okay,

I'd ball my fists too,

My feelings in quiet disarray.

Time for a break,

Take a slow, deep breath,

Control isn't a piece of cake,

Mind over matter, bury it all in depth.

I'd try finding my strength,

To stand up and do things right,

Dust off discouragement, walk farther at a length,

Leaving it all behind, so far out of sight.

I'd grasp a helping hand,

Two to divide the pain.

Life is simply grand,

With friends to throw troubles down the drain.

Frustrations come but it will pass,

It's all in the matter of handling it,

Take it in, learn the lessons it has,

Just get out of that sandy pit.

“In Dreams I Meet You There”

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-=I dedicate this to someone who has known so much of me, and is very close to my heart. She is my best friend, my bestie bud, whose friendship I've shared for 6 years. I miss you, Joanna. This one's for you.=-

In dreams I see you,

Your form so real and true,

Reality evades me in this world of dreams,

Where nothing is as real as it seems.

My soul feels light and blissfully happy,

As I walk beside you, absolutely carefree.

I chatter away, enjoying your company,

Time seemed endless, it was just you and me.

In dreams your presence is assuring and comforting,

It comes with your reminder, a message to stop despairing,

I must go on and live as I should,

You smile at me and I know somehow, I could.

Now I look back and remember those rare times.

I remember your laughter, your presence, your poetic rhymes.

We're endlessly distant, a whole life apart,

But you're here I know, in the depths of my heart.

In silence, in despair, my thoughts turn to you,

I'd lie down and I'd wonder, so unknowing of what to do.

Please watch over and guide me true,

From darkness keep, to the light I go through.

I miss you, dear friend, wherever you are,

I wish you eternal happiness, as bright as a laughing star,

Our friendship has always been amazing and one-of-a kind,

And always it will be cherished, both in heart and mind.

A Major Essential in a Relationship: TRUST

"No, I am not an expert in relationships. I've never even entered a serious relationship before. I'll reserve that for my future. But nevertheless, I've seen enough that if trust isn't established properly in a relationship, it could take a turn headed for disaster."

Trust is a must in any form of relationships, whether in family, friendship and love. There is trust in a family when there is understanding and responsibility. We trust our best friends because our secrets with them are kept safe. But trust becomes delicate when incorporated into a boy-girl relationship. It's definitely different.

Trust, in its basic form, means confidence, moral responsibility and faith. Two keywords here are moral responsibility and faith(confidence is closely related to this). Having faith is strongly believing, and that is important for a relationship to work. Trust becomes a moral responsibility when it is given to someone. It's wonderful when you can become a person to be trusted. It means that you value what they give you and that they in turn, know that they could count on you. Trust is delicate, and sometimes heavy. Therefore, it should never be taken for granted. It's one of the hardest things to get back once you have lost them. It takes so much more to earn it back than to lose it in the blink of an eye. At extreme cases, it may prove impossible to do so. We have to be careful.

It's sad a lot of relationships fall apart because of gossips(what I'm trying to say by this is that when one side listens to gossips more rather than hearing the truth from its source, your partner), third parties and jealousy. And no doubt you'd sometimes ask yourself: was there real trust between both sides?

Gossips can be very damaging. Either you believe them or you don't. At some point in a relationship, gossips arise that may test the faith of one side. Instead of immediately jumping to conclusions, its best to get to the bottom of the matter. And there is no one better to answer that than its very source and subject, your partner. Having a heart-to-heart talk in times like these proves the existence of trust in relationship. You trust your partner to tell you the truth of the gossips. If it turns out that the gossips are untrue, then your partner will be relieved to know that you trusted in him/her enough to ask the truth from her instead of immediately believing gossips and create a misunderstanding. It seems impractical too to listen to gossips rather than hearing the truth from your partner whom you have known so well for a long time. If the gossips are true, well, that is another situation. This is where understanding should come in. Both sides should talk it out and listen to what each other has to say before judging. They should try to understand what went wrong and then come up with the best possible solution. A fight may be unavoidable, and that is natural. In the end, we have to make decisions as to whether we continue the relationship or end it. If another chance is given, accept it wholeheartedly and strive to do better in the future. If not, then it simply had to end.

What I'm really trying to point out here is that in situations like these, they should really talk, I mean, really talk. Communication is the key. Constant communication is even better. I doubt relationships stand a chance without this.

When there is communication, its letting the other side know what you do and how you feel, effectively bringing the relationship closer. A relationship at the beginning takes a lot of adjustments. And most of it involves getting to know the person better and getting used to him/her. We must know what both sides want, and work out solutions to settle that together. Talking often is igniting that special spark all over again, and trust becomes stronger each time we do. We can also overcome little quibbles if both sides are open to each other. If anything's wrong, then speak it out instead of putting unnecessary strain on yourself and the relationship. It's best that you do. Sometimes silence, thought it may not seemingly hurt anyone, can create problems. Since the other side doesn't have a clue of what's going on, there appears a gap between the relationship. If the other side suddenly becomes silent and is starting to withdraw from you, wouldn't you want to know what's happening? If silence continues, then you will simply drift apart. I've seen this happen. And most often, it is the girls who is left so confused and hurt. It's like the heart wants to ask that silent person, "Did you not trust me enough to tell me what's wrong?". It seems so wrong for a relationship to end like that. There is no other way to deal with it then to talk openly. And make sure that after the communication, there will be little room for ill feelings. Accept whatever comes. The truth may hurt for quite a while, but its not impossible to get over it with the right help.

That's why its important to communicate often. It's an essential key for trust to keep the relationship intact. It hardly leaves any holes for misunderstanding.

As perfection decrees, no one is perfect. Committing mistakes is unavoidable, and it takes patience and acceptance from both sides. This is also where you will see if your partner is able to accept you for who you are and what you are not. If he/she truly loves you, he/she knows how to overlook your mistakes and see the beautiful side of you. That is looking with your heart and not your eyes alone. If there was ever trust in the beginning, then this will eventually hold true.

Trust in relationships should have a strong ground. Keeping these things in mind might help strengthen whatever relationships there may be, despite obstacles that come to test its connection. It's important to keep the relationship alive, more so to keep that special spark going. You got together for a reason and there is love to keep both of you there, and there should definitely be trust to keep it strong.

It all starts here, when you say it and when you accept it from someone;

"I trust you."

~I'm not speaking from experience here. This is merely my opinion based on what I observe around me. I learn from these situations and I develop an idea of what should and should not be done. It's helpful to observe of what's going around you. It might even guide you.~

Top 10 Realizations of 2009

It's the new year! I take a step back for a moment and ponder on the things that I realized and come to accept in the year 2009. So much has happened, but here's my Top 10 list:

10.) I choose how my life goes, I allow things to happen but some may be out of control. But to the extent of those I can influence, I choose to live my life with responsibility, good sense and moral and with meaning.

9.) I've written more poems this year than any other year.

8.) A lot of things that I wistfully wished for came true. I didn't really ask for them, but it's a wish uttered at passing times. Nevertheless, they came true.

7.) I used to worry about being on the skinny side. But not so much now, since a close friend pointed out to me, "You can eat as much as you want. " :D

6.) Find time to vent your feelings. The feeling doesn't leave you till you do.

5.) I'm convinced that choosing ComSci as my course is one of the best choices I made. I realize that I prefer it so much over other possible course choices. Hopefully I'll see this through the end.

4.) If you're not sure that you love that person, then you probably didn't love him at all.

3.) I could write more than a thousand reasons why I'm very much thankful to the Good Lord of all that I have today. They're priceless.

2.) There's just no escaping some things, no matter how hard you've tried preparing yourself to avoid them.

1.) 2009 is a year I'll never, ever, ever forget. I felt that the year 2009 has given me a mountain of amazing surprises that came tumbling down on me. It's been a truly beautiful year for me.

-the treasures of the past should be kept safe and cherished, they will become priceless for the future. -